IT: The Cause of my Troubles

        Last summer was when the incident with IT occurred. IT is my nightmare. IT, the cause of my troubles, my depression, my sadness. IT was the cause of the situation where I stand in the current day. I can`t help it any more! I need to confess! IT is Andy Evans. Andy Evans raped me last summer in the party. I tried to tell Rachel about the incident with Andy Evans. With more reason, now that she is dating him, and going to prom with him. However, when I finally got the courage to reveal her my deepest secret, she didn´t believe me.  Would you believe your friend, or some guy you just met two or three weeks ago? I see myself, believing in my friend, but Rachel didn`t see that way. She called me a "liar", and thought I was jealous of her dating Andy Evans. I am everything but jealous, Andy Evans is the cause of my troubles, the guy I would least like to be with. 

        Rachel ended up going to prom with Andy Evans; however, when they were dancing Rachel got pissed off at him, and ended up with a kid from Portugal.  Andy was as angry as a volcano eruption, rocks and lava miles and miles away. I guess his anger reminded me of that night, when he hurt me. Andy didn`t think he raped me, he thought I wanted to too. He also told me that I screwed things up for him. Well, that`s nothing compared to what he did to me. Besides raping me and ruining my reputation in High School, he ruined years of my life with that memory. I don`t think I screwed up things for him, he on the contrary screwed up things for me in a huge way.  Meanwhile, in the closet, Andy was trying to hurt me, but this time I defended myself. I started shouting and trying to make sounds in the closet, so that somebody could help me. 

       Fortunately, Nicole and the lacrosse team where able to hear me, and saw how Andy tried to attack me. Thankfully, I was able to open the door. The word spread, and for the last days of school, I actually became popular. I guess keeping such a secret to myself was nothing but killing me on the inside. After revealing the secret, I felt like a new person.  Andy Evans raped me last August, I was drunk, and didn`t know what was happening. But I`m not going to let that kill me and damage myself any more. I will grow out of it. I will be a new Melinda Sordino.